A battle you can't win
A dream you can't touch
Every night you fight in this war
Sleep is your defeat
Avoid it like a plague
Succumb to the irresistible temptation
An omnipotent force
Irrevocable like the gravity that pulls us down
You go in headfirst
Eyes ablaze with passion
A soft ticking passes
The ground seems closer
So much more attractive than the minute before
You pull through
Not now, not tonight
A smile at your temporary triumph
Don't worry, it's not to last
The laughter in the distance creeps in
The shadowy figures effectively avert your gaze
You become hypersensitive
Every light burns like the sun
Every sound an explosion
Every smell a rancid corpse
Every touch your lover's hand
Or perhaps a knife a bit dull
The ticking never ceases
So the edges fade
Your eyes are open but you can't tell the difference
They come in through every orifice
And force what you deny
Tear your fingers from their white-knuckled grasp
They know you hate the silence
Loathe it
So they fill it with screams instead
The palpitations have been continuous
Are you dying?
No
You're sleeping
You're sleeping
You'll wake soon
It'll be over soon
The racing thoughts
The hastened heart
The failing senses
You need to calm down
Just make them stop, please
You think lying still will help
Just
For a second
You lose
Lights out
When I hear the wind swept whisper something in my inner ear. I pause I blink I gasp I squeak and think, what strange creature does not sleep, tonight! The aird air and darkeness there but do convince to give up sight. And I greet the pavement lined with gold. A strand and wonder within the dreamland, what words to hear, what message shall I send? From the abyss of a deeper realm. But the Sun and my hope there.
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